shall not say much if not i gonna be long winded so i will use pic to explain all.. ok yesterday was kinda sad when all my frenz were leaving la haiz.. but im glad tt they come hehe.. anyway yesterday caught some1 keep on eating.. meiting no2 haha everytime i come out nv failed to see her holding with food.. den nvm la go home tt time still munching wif tidbits haha..

ok though i dislike my bro frenz coz they are damn noisy and make me angry.. but i cannot deny tt they are veri funny.. they noe how to chao qi fen.. without them rite it gonna be a cold day.. bleahx

den 1st day check-in wanna high but cannot coz nobody high wif me.. and was like so bored.. sobsob coz some went mia some zhong she qing you except 1.. and hor i dun like to be a light bulb la so keep hiding inside the room hehe.. anyway i almost spoilt their plan haha.. i duno y i choose not to listen to her la.. anyway they did surprise me..

shall post the pic another day haha... anyway thx once again

im gonna say goodbye to my 17 today and welcome my 18 tml hehe.. ok expected something la so i shall not be to affected by it.. at the moment i tot of following my heart but i noe is a wrong decision coz i noe something gonna happen.. so well see how 1st bah :)

so later on onli got me n dar haiz.. wad can a 2 person do in there neh? hehehe.. wadeva it is i miss sleeping wif them got a kind of xin fu de gan jue ;) so later on i definitely be zi lian-ing hahaha...

alright finish saying le.. so byebye.. and enjoy!!!

pardon for my zi lian-ing coz being influenced by p9

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

juz sent fiona off.. ok she stayed at my hse and this is the 1st time frenz staying at my hse la.. yesterday we wanted to watch death note but... we are too tired watch less den 20mins we were falling aslp haha..

yesterday we had lots of fun!! we went balcony to celebrate.. this year is a veri clean year and we are not being sprayed or wad.. and we like refugee kept avoiding those ppl holding spray can.. and i saw lynette poor ger have to shout.. 1st time see her shout.. well i veri good 1 la saw her shouting so bought strepsils for her.. haha and dar wanna disturb her she say wanna gif her surprise though they duno each other la.. dar went up to her n gave her strepsils and she was shocked hahaha cool man..

ok when its going to 12, the staff gave every customer a party package those whistle and stuff la haha omg when i saw tt i damn high la.. and we are the noisest grp we dun haf any yi tai haha.. den the manager approach us asking whether we enjoy and the food nice anot coz we too high le.. the highest moment is the countdown part.. i turn crazy man..

well we order quite a no. of drinks.. mel n fio say the shots can kill la so each order 1 and all the name of the shot damn er xin haha.. got sex on the beach, slippery nipple, blowjob haha all this er xin stuff.. i ordered test tube baby..but after we drink rite ok leh haha..yesterday drank quite a lot but not drunk lor.. if we drink tt same amount n go clubbing confirm faint.. and as usual we took quite a no. of pic haha thx to dar's camera.. well yesterday i was zi lian-ing hehehe.. not onli me zi lian-ing mah mic n cin also.. and mel went off halfway thru she zhong se qing you haha..

anyway yesterday i nearly spoilt everything but i dun think i am at fault.. coz we having the lightstick and mic took my blue lightstick and she already had one la and she dun wanna gif it back to me.. and i like tt lightstick a lot she die die also dun wanna return me and the moment i was damn **** up la coz b4 tt some1 took my star light.. and at tt moment i was thinking how come i cant get the things i wanted and y they wanna took away something which i fancy alot.. have they ever spare a thought for me though i may look bochap.. sometimes i just feel tt i am damn pathetic la not onli them make me feel this way others too.. im not trying to imply anything ppl do haf limit just dont go beyond tt plz..

but wadeva it is, we get over soon.. yup yup.. and yesterday was a well spent christmas coz we finally did something mature haha.. last time we were idling at the street getting sprayed at being squeeze and alot of stuff la.. yesterday we were sitting down enjoying and watching ppl getting sprayed haha.. indeed it look childish.. for them they get mature when they are 18 but for me 17 haha.. i love yesterday alot the place the environment and finally them..

one last thing.. yesterday in the afternoon my dad finally bought for me k800i!! wohoo!! a long waiting abt 2 months near to 3.. haha wad a happy christmas eve i had.. wadeva it is thx daddy!! hahahaha..

juz came back so come here 1st before taking my long slp.. was out whole day la.. morning went k wif some1 and tt some1 said help me celebrate my bdae n i expect something well at the end of it also nothing hahah just a packet of milk and choc.. thx anyway.. and kinda sorry for my attitude la ok im not angry or wad bcoz u not going or cant find anyone la.. is bcoz i suddenly xiang tong a lot of things.. and like tt lor..

after tt we went our seperate ways coz tt person need to haf dinner wif parents... den i went to work haha 2dae work was fun too.. though no mic but got new ppl.. and 2dae nearly kanna caught by NEA ppl heng we pack fast.. at the moment i was wondering wad is going on la coz everything happen too quickly le hahaha.. if we were caught by them we need to pay $150 per person.. ya so veri heng lor.. but got 1 grp veri unlucky la get caught by them hahaha.. den our grp n shiying's grp is competing wif one another who can sell the most.. well obviously is ours la wahahaha.. thx shiying for the lobang or rather dar for intro..

after work we dun feel like going home so slack at orchard well.. had our dinner/supper at cine the suki sushi.. den went to watch movie, death note2.. i nv watch the 1st part so is kinda weird to watch the 2nd part but dar got brief me a bit of the story la.. b4 the show starts i was damn tired and the music makes me fall aslp.. the show may be nice la but i was too tired to watch the show and is in jap and is quite tedious for me to read the subtitles.. and slowly i juz fall aslp hehe.. abt 1/2 of the time i was slping cannot blame mah i was tired and is veri cold in there n i keep fidgeting.. anyway this is my 1st time watching mid-night show..

and i think my dad really knows how to cheat my feelings lor.. he told me when he is free he will go down to funan to buy fone for me when i came back.. expected NOTHING!!! is so damn guo fen la.. i mean if he dun wanna buy it just say not buying it.. dun say if im free i will buy so when is he gonna be free so **** de lor.. lets wait for christmas time.. argh!!! hate him for tt.. so how long am i suppose to wait... he should bought the fone for me instead of tt stupid idiot yet lousy 6280.. some more is a shitty colour...

alright good nite to myself.. hope later on will be fun!! yes us again hahaha.. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

oh my!! now is onli 6am and i already awake! cant get back to slp either so juz come here lor hehehe..

yesterday was out to work.. not my xian nang job.. is out in town to sell some christmas stuff initially was so damn pai seh coz duno how to approach customer so we find a spot and pai di tan haha.. we act until veri pathetic coz we got no table not cardboard no anything la.. so we juz sat on the floor and display our goods well indeed got ppl buy from us la.. is great working wif dar n mic.. it will be even greater if mel n fio join us :) later on will be working again fun fun fun!!! hahaha 1st time find tt working is so damn fun... oh and hor yesterday was my zui lang bei day damn it la they bully me as usual.. i look so auntie when walking around orchard had to carry a big plastic bag.. dar got the most yi tai 1 la carry my bag nia.. argh!! haven 18 already look so auntie sobsob.. anyway mic was last min ask to work initially we asked her to be their free labour but i think they in need of ppl so ask mic to join us too hehehe

alright b4 tt we went shopping or rather they.. and i finally saw dar's hand bag cost around $119.. hmm wad a heavy hand bag she gonna buy haha.. but well me n mic duno how to xin shang this kinda stuff so haf to wait for fio hahaha.. both dar n mic veri cute la no time already die die still wanna shop.. especially mic we are already late and she still wanna shop argh!!! hahaha den nvm la.. when we were working rite she went to buy her creative present lor wad the.. :P anyway we 3 bought a skirt.. skirt leh hahaha. the skirt dun haf my size but i still can wear it just tt it is veri tight and dar say muz jian fei 1st b4 i can wear it.. well is that a way to motivate myself? hope so haha.. anyway we 3 bought the same sizes!! same sizes man haha both of them skinner den me wahahaha nan dao i already slim down? bleahx well mic say i haf slim down but i dun think i am la.. but thx for saying ah hahaha

yesterday was out wif mt onli but later on found out tt tracy, lyn n felicia was at orchard too so qiao.. so decided to look for them and we were drenched!!! argh.. and i can feel tt my shoes is filled with water.. bcoz of them we suffered! yesterday it rain non-stop. irritated! oh well long time nv see felicia le.. hmm at 1st tot got nth to chat wif her or will haf those stranger kind of feelings.. but i am wrong la.. haha.. well like usual i was disturbing her or said some lame stuff.. there is a part she asked how come guess got so many ppl.. and i duno wad i was saying la i told her coz they are playing guess who am i game? duh! oh.. she asked me y i dun like to speak english haha hey i pass my english k just passed onli hehe.. actually is not i dun wanna speak la is my mind not working fast when it comes to english... maybe i should start speaking now bah but i dun wanna end up wif alan's accent "t"

den today went to old folks home kinda nervous la coz i duno how to interact with them.. n i think i become the joke of the day la but not totally.. ok b4 we go into the interaction session... tt in-charge, melissa, was orientating us.. but i cant hear a single word she said tts not impt actually.. ok we were playing a mini games we were asked to list down wad a person may lose when he/she reached 70.. maybe she wanna let us noe how the elders are feeling bah.. den we were given 3 choices.. for me is beauty, appetite n status.. 1st i threw away beauty coz at such an old age beauty is not tt impt la.. next i was pondering between appetite n status.. it is a tough decision.. after several analysing i decided to choose appetite coz to me is tt so wad u haf status to me status is no use la.. u can command ppl but u lost ur appetite isnt it sad too? got money to eat but cannot enjoy the food.. and hor i wanna haf a good meal b4 i leave this place.. den got 1 person rite.. 1st thing she threw away is health? omg! health is like so impt w/o it u cant do much but well it is a veri tough decision to make la..

so after this trip rite.. i told myself no matter how hard my life is no matter wad illness my parents will haf in future(hope they haf none) i will nv ever put them in homes.. i will give them all my love coz they are my parents, my loved ones.. yi shou dai da de parents.. and hor homes had nv ever come across my mind b4..

today b4 going work meet dar.. i told her i will go over her place.. she called and ask me to wait for her opposite the bus stop den i tot she will take bus from there.. so juz cross the road i waited for her.. on the other hand she was waiting for me at her hse bus stop both of us were waiting for each other.. stupid lor.. hahaha.. we went to little india.. so wad can we do at little india? haha onli tt lor wad else.. ok b4 i went to work i bought my favourtie food.. i bought 3 packet in advance for chalet

one more thing.. so damn it la.. my workplace got additional ice-cream fridge argh.. so many temptation around me.. how to jian fei tell me la.. seems like a challengea to me sia.. and hor i just watch the superstar.. sheila sang high high high!?!?! haha i was making comparison but still i prefer her la..

just now was browsing through something.. and guess wad!! im in love with them la.. ahem and ahem and ahem shuai dai le wahahaha.. cant take my eyes off them.. im turning crazy soon!!! was thinking how to ying jie chinese new year 2007.. still got 2 months left and i haven prepare anything yet.. like clothes n stuff la and most importantly wo de zui ai hair.. hehe wanna try out lots of thing..

hmm... tml will be going out wif mt.. FOR HER SAKE i gif all sort of excuses in exchange of a off day.. see mt i so wei da.. hope tml can get something i am satisfied with..

oh now my whole family was trying to shoot me.. everyone of them said im fat argh!! well my bro were fat once and i laugh at them and now is like my retribution la.. so sad.. my bro said he can eat wadeva coz he get to exercise as for me wahaha eat liao jiu sit on the chair watch tv no wonder will turn fat and he was trying to restrict me from eating too much tidbits argh!!! food food food u cant go away just like tt wahaha.. and i had been trying so hard to refrain myself from eating too much but still the temptation... maybe i gonna do something abt it :p

haiz.. 很伤心啊！再度被欺骗 nah.. cannot say is 欺骗 la.. coz in the 1st place he also nv promise me.. well i told myself not to take it to heart but i still cannot control myself.. i really wish wadeva u say will come true.. but when times goes by and u kept breaking it seriously i will not trust u anymore.. no matter how u tried to plz me no matter wad reason u gif me i will not gonna believe it again.. coz i noe u too well.. u always like tt.. if u dun wish to plz dun say it in front of me..

我一直都很期待 可是你不知道我的期待是有限的 我很怕总有一天我会崩溃 我真得很期待他会出现在我眼前 如果你真的不想何必说那们多废话来哄我呢。何必呢？你更本不了解我的感受。你给我希望却又汇了他。我希望你不要再让我等下去因为我真得很痛苦。。。如果你真的不想 我希望你能老实的对我说！！！我真的受够了！！！

well.. listen to mt advise and d/l Firefox.. hmm until now i still not quite use to it la.. dunno y but well i think i will get use to it soon..

oh just now my dad was telling me he gonna buy my fav fone for me.. wahaha unbelievable sia but still better dun pin so much hope bah.. but i was um chio-ing when he tell me tat hehe..

today is their ROD last min was ask to go but den bu fang bian la and some1 say is theirs so no need to go lor.. hahaha sianz today not going out will be staying at home till nitez lonely me wahaha.. worst is my fav show the 3 of them is not wif me now!! duno wad to do at home also.. rotten..

looking forward to christmas but not to tt special day.. hmm.. think abt it if all of us can make it on christmas eve den we will be see each other from 24-28 wow haha 5days bu fen kai.. the reason of spending it wif them on dec26 is bcoz i wanna end it beautifully with them and haf a nice starting with them too.. im not say others cannot la but they juz had this special place within me.. well u guys also haf it too i also love u all u will get to noe it soon hehe all my chen yi.. ;)

woohoo!! its PARTY time!!! HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY here i come!!! after a long week of studying finally is time for me to haf a good rest and ENJOYMENT! wahahaha love this holiday got tons of event coming up.. can say a veri well spend holiday.. firstly is christmas secondly no need to say its obvious hahaha.. third is wl birthday no need to spend wif her.. younger den me by 732 days.. and i duno y she insist is 734.. she born in dec29 1990.. so wad is the difference? 2 or 4? next is wb birthday haha so many birthday.. after tt is new year!! and also a poor month for me.. and in between will be going to old folks and maybe clubbing? haha dar suggested it.. yes the 5 of us will definitely go together 1 day..

HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY!!!!

i think recently i was drunk or something la.. i duno why am i reacting tt way and i duno y am i saying all those rubbish la.. and kinda sorry for my dao-ness.. haha coz i get to realise how impt u r to me and how much i cherish u all.. i once said i cant bring myself to hate/dislike u all is bcoz..... u will get to noe it soon ;) i haf learnt how to put down certain things.. i haf learnt how to accept the way who they are..

i love today lesson CD!! woohoo!! as usual bel is the weirdest of all.. come from inda de hahaha.. anyway today ashley nv come went for bowl.. hmm without her around kinda weird leh like something is missing haha!! so ash u see how impt u are to us hehehe

and i was kinda pissed by those ppl coming over to bbc to buy stuff.. damn lor i feel like writing a complain letter or something.. so idiot de leh.. got escalator provided for them they dun wanna use.. die die wanna take the lift are they lazy or wad.. argh!! good thing is the lift dont serve 2 n 3 imagine 1 floor also wanna take the lift bloody lazy la.. imagine 1 lift broke down and those ppl die die wanna take the lift.. walau eh haf they ever consider the resident over there anot.. argh!! if no ppl nvm la.. but the prob is everytime i took the lift 3/4 of them are not resident!! waste my time lor and some ppl haf to wait for the next lift.. ass... lazy singaporean..

im dying to haf my hair cut!! it makes me feel so uneasy.. now got the urge to cut it short sia but den haiz not long enuff to haf wider range of style.. argh!!!! sickening!!

hmm.. if i were to describe myself i will say difficult to understand bah.. though u may guess wad i am thinking but u are onli 1/2 or 3/4 right.. there are still a lot of things which i yet to figure it out... sometimes things are not easily to be forgotten.. to me i cant simply take it as nth happen.. even if i am feeling fine after a slp but it still chun zai inside my mind... i cant treat is as nth happen unless i had found the truth or figure out something.. worst comes to worst let the time do all those forgetting issue...

to me we should answer for all our action... just like fooling around at the end of the day u get urself aids.. killing some1 u will be sentence to death.. if a parents ill-treat their child they will be charge for negligent(law - got study 1 hor)..

if i haf a choice, i would like to be a vampire whom can understand ppl's feelings.. currently i got a lot of qns mark inside my mind.. there are lots of things i still dun understand... how i wish some1 can answer all my qns but i noe is impossible...

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

like i said i just being a busybody... all this is wad i haf started.. all this is just my wishful thinking.. since no1 is affected by all those shit.. i haf finally learnt my lesson... tt is to keep all my opinion to myself..

i really wish u can feel the sadness in me.. i wish u can feel tt... i wish u r by my side now... with u by my side everything will be fine... im feeling terrible right now.. nobody can understand my feelings.. it sux totally..

out to find a right path

good morning to myself.. 1st time wake up so early..

yesterday nitez was chatting wif some1 or rather being qns stuff n tt.. i was damn damn damn angry at the moment.. i just FEEL tt i had created the mess n stuff and all the blame was on me? wad the hell... yesterday i wrote something to her and i was told tt it was too direct? damn it! think again y should i bother his feelings sia!!! just bcoz he will feel sad so i cannot write plz la.. onli he got feelings ah i also got lor.. u feel sad for URSELF as for me I FEEL sad for her and unfairness.. and dun u go n ask her anything or wadeva shit coz now i bu shuang is U and she duno this matter..

after chatting i really feel like being alone or just wanna find some1 to tok to so called wl.. well she nv noe tt everytime i called is bcoz i feel sad or angry.. but b4 tt i wrote dar something i doubt she will saw it if got it will be too late.. anyway congrad her for officially graduated!!! ya den b4 i called wl i cry? damn it i cry for all the shit i created? i feel a pain in my heart

i told wl all the stuff which she dun understand but nvm at least i had say it out but i still feel the pain in me.. den i told her i dun trust her or rather everyone bcoz im afraid i will get hurt in the end.. but i trust dar.. and she was damn sad when i tell her i dun trust her.. i duno i got trust in her now.. but everytime i feel like telling her something but im juz afraid.. but yesterday i told her all the stuff which had kept inside my heart for a long time well i nv regretted saying it out at all.. haiz i think i always break her fragile heart...

talking abt trust.. i finally noe y i feel a pain in my heart... tts bcoz they dun trust me.. even her lor.. they suspect wad i wrote.. if he dun believe me jiu suan le even u... if tt particular sentence has cause u to be sad.. den i will say serve u right i will not gonna apologise.. and it is ****ing damn ridiculous to feel suspicious over tt sentence. and is totally no link at all.. both of u are not me u will nv noe wad i am thinking.. since i cant crap den u all just wait and see wad i will do...

haiz.. thinking of p9 give me a feelings...

juz came back from sp dance concert.. wow!!! like the whole thing la though i really dun understand hahaha.. i like their hiphop especially the fushion.. omg!! their shake superb sia and they were so damn attitude.. i like their attitude!! and i like the beatboxing part too!!! lalalala

anyway today went wb's hse.. hmm her hse cool sia!!! we were in her room talking abt our past.. duno who started it de lor den tt person in the end dun feel like telling us(expected) but in the she still did.. i like the atmosphere though is a bit dark and long time didnt had such a "good talk" wif frenz le.. well talking abt my past wad i can say is my mind is onli filled with tt thing.. i duno y whenever i was asked abt my past or talk abt it i will just rmb tt thing la.. haiz..

damn it!!! now i really bu shuang wif some1 now!!! alright i shall take it as all this while im juz being a kpo la!!! wad the hell!!! from now on i shall not bother abt it again coz afterall is not my business!!! idiot idiot idiot.. seriously i dun think haf done anything wrong!!

alright i admit tt sometimes i a bit straight forward but i really dun haf any intention to hurt anyone...

ARGH!!! WAD A PISSED DAY!!! FROM NOW ON I SHALL NOT BOTHER ABT PPL'S FEELING COZ THEY NV SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME THEY ALWAYS THINK THEY ARE RIGHT THEY ALWAYS THINK THEIR PRESUMPTION IS ALWAYS RIGHT AND I WAS ALWAYS IN THE WRONG!!!! WAD THE HELL!! I DUN HAF THE FREEOM TO SAY THINGS!!! EVERYTHING I WANNA DO IS RESTRICTED!!! WAD A LIFE!!! DAMN DAMN DAMN!!! SUX TOTALLY!!!!!

dont feel like blogging de but den i was told to do so.. ya so do it for the sake of it wahaha.. ok today onli attended 1 hour lesson or rather less den that.. so sianz lor waste my precious sleeping time.. after that went to the melt down.. hang around there for awhile to kill time.. sianz nothing to do de.. after that went bugis street to short list some items for the old folks.. this is my 1st time participate in it la coz normally is lz they all do de.. den kinda guilty for not doing my part all bcoz of my job.. hope that i can get replaced asap den i will take a week break b4 my next job search hehehe...

we short list for awhile onli la coz all were tired? or rather they were dying of hunger. seriously im not hungry at all lor but if i dun eat they wun eat so mian qiang say hungry.. ya stuff myself wif food again.. and i had been eating a lot of fried food argh!! kinda fat now so trying to jian fei.. talking abt jian fei i had been saying tt since duno when but still no outcome.. but hor food is my everything la i cannot live without food.. now feel like doing some exercise but no one pei haiz...

ya den after that went bugis shop shop.. wanna find cross stitch but cannot find the one i wanted so just shop around lor.. damn! feel like buying clothes lor but nvm friday will be going shopping but.... still must see my mood 1st la.. den we went muji.. blacklisted once.. wanna go there look look de but end up we sat on the sofa to relax!! and we were being watched!! haha the moment we sat down we really treat this as our home lor so comfy hehehe.. but duno will hai dao ashley anot coz we mention her name :x

den belbel called hahaha all of us disturb her by talking to her using our fake voice lmao!! well bel the high pitch ger is actually me la hehe.. i love disturbing u coz u r blur!!! bleahx and ur laughter veri funny lor.. sometimes i laugh is not bcoz its funny la is bcoz of ur laughter hahahaha..but weird la after disturbing her we all become so lifeless... ohya today bel kissed me!! wahahaha!! long time nv kissed by ppl le.. so 27dec rmb ah a kiss and a hug (gers onli)

eh.. frankly speaking ah i really dun wish to hear anything regarding the fone i wanted.. coz it reminds me of how my dad "cheated" my feelings.. and i cant forget everything he did lor.. u noe wad i want and yet u dun wanna get it for me if i noe this is the outcome, i should not haf tell u in the 1st place so tt i wun be hurt..

though i like the fone alot, somehow i lost interest in it. if my dad bought it for me, i will not be as delighted as i suppose to be.. and now trying to aim for other fone but to me tt is the best lor and nice.. sianz.. anyway, present is not tt impt.. to me it just an appreciation.. wad i wanted most if the process... to me if i got tons of present, regardless of ex or those that i wanted to haf.. at the end of the day nobody celebrate it with me, everything will be meaningless.. :)

today alicia created her own survey for lz hahaha kinda personal type bah... i tot to myself am i a truthful person.. after some thoughts i thinks tt i am not la.. i cant be truthful to everyone not even them.. i cannot nv tell the whole true but muz depends on the situation.. sometimes i may be forgetful and said the wrong thing which is not true at all like anyhow create a story la or i just anyhow interpret other ppl's story..not purposely do it de la.. i will onli tell 1/2 or 3/4 of the truth especially those that are personal or i am the onli one who noe wad is going on tt kind.. so is like i will just tell the surface of it and not going into much details..

and if u think silence means consent well this kinda thing is definitely a no no to apply on me.. coz when i keep quiet, i am actually going thru a deep thought... i will think a lot of stuff la... and i really hate it nono is not hate is dun like la.. i dun like it when i am being blame on something which is not even my fault at all.. if it is cause by an accident n blame is put on me i will be unhappy coz i nv do it on purpose.. and i cant predict tt this kinda of accident will happen.. and if it is meant to be a joke plz sounds like a joke and dun make it sounds like u r trying to lecture me or something...

ok seriously i really need my 1 n 3 badly!!! damn it im addicted to it lor ever since i watched 2 and tt gay keep mentioning it haiz... 1 n 3 faster come back to my side!!! i miss u lots!!!

finally finish watching my fav. vcd wahahaha haf been repeatedly watching it umpteen time.. maybe some will say i crazy or wad la even my family also said tt.. but seriously i dun find it sianz leh.. n now i was waiting for my 1 n 3 to come back to my side... to the 2 person plz auto abit ah especially the 1 who is holding on to my 1... hehe also waiting for 4 to come out but duno muz wait how long sia.. haiz..

hmm... i admit i am a bias person.. or maybe i just wanna be ms nice or maybe i duno how to reject some1's offer but if im really veri sianz or wad i will reject la or maybe in my previous life i owe them too much so now is my pay back time? really duno.. but i can confirm tt i am not bias or wad to tt one... yes im in love with her hahaha not tt kind of love is frenz love is not i dun love my frenz i do love them but she is the exceptional 1.. when u are sad i maybe not be able to an wei u but i will be by ur side to 'irritate' u.. i think u noe how irritating i am le bah wahahaha.. i will not comment or say much of ur decision.. i will just respect it coz i noe u noe wad u r doing.. u said we once had a veri bad quarrel well i think i rmb when it happen but cant rmb much of the details but dun worry it wun happen again coz i will onli love n irritate u.. u also said tt if i am unwanted u wanna take me in... kinda touched by wad u say but plz dun sound as if i am unwanted.. just tt it havent arrive yet unlike u.. and i noe u wun hurt me...

so fast december le.. trying hard to think how to spend my days meaningfully b4 i reach 18.. well the best way is to spend with the SPDC or rather perfect 9.. but still i like the name SPDC so to the creator plz create something similiar to the SPDC for the perfect9...

and havent tot of wad christmas gift to give the P9 coz unisex stuff is so limited? haha tot of one but still considering.. for my 1st grp of darlings i have already tot of it... its something u cant get it outside hehehe...

came back from sch super early today around 12 like tt coz normally at this hour i will be hanging out for a short while but today dun haf the mood.. talk less den 5 sentence.. im not sad la just tt i dun feel like talking n stuff.. and i passed my day meaninglessly...

ok today lesson was argh!!! microsoft access is so damn chim.. can anyone tell me the purpose of access?? and tt lecturer told us that this test can kill!! but... a pro like me wahahaha can pass with flying c0lours(like real).. and i think this access is gonna drive my crazy and soon i gonna turn to bai fai mo nv...

on my way home saw this ger a fat ger looks young around early 20 bah... she wear a veri po lan shirt to me is not really tt po lan la but she wanna make it look po lan so cut a few holes here n there.. well i dun understand wad she trying to say coz i was listening to my mp3 i dun even wanna bother.. but not to make it look obvious i try to listen to wad she wan but seriously i cant hear anything.. but i was looking at her mouth la.. if im not wrong she trying to say tips? duno la so i juz ignore her acting dao.. if she really wan money to eat or wad she got hand and leg cant she juz find a job somemore she so young if it is an old woman i will just give.. she can work in fastfood got free meals for break.. haiz....

yesterday pon 2 lesson n i missed some "happening" stuff in the library.. got 1 couple kissing la.. and i duno y they so da jing xiao guai.. i juz find them er xin lor so despo for wad.. and i think they are too engross to it coz they were luffing at them so loudly and they still can carry on... ya we all noe both of u are deeply in love with each other and both of u haf succeeded in proving it...

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